Battle weary

When I began this blog nearly 3 years ago, my purpose for doing so was to share what everyday life as an apostolic mom is like. Now... if you've been a regular reader, there have definitely been many more ups than downs. Sometimes I don't write about the downs, but that is not an accurate portrayal of life as a mom... apostolic or not! You show me a person who is PMA (positive mental attitude) 24/7/365, and I'll show you a single person. There is no such thing as a parent (esp. a mom) who has a perfect positive mental attitude every minute of every day of her life! Such is the case this evening. I will not even get into the ugly details here, because you really don't want to hear them. But it was ugly. What started out as a fun family trip out for a creamy turned into a horrible battle of the wills...replete with disrespect of major proportion, and angry words flying every which way. Life as a Christian mom is no easier than for any other mom. In fact, because the enemy does not appreciate us trying to raise Godly children, he attacks all the more, trying to cause division between the children and the parents. Tonight, when the heat of the battle was over, I got on my knees and bawled my eyes out to God (He understands that), and told Him I had NO IDEA what to do next. I am so glad that God doesn't turn His back on us in our time of need. I ran to my Father and cried in His arms, and He understood. THAT is the hope that Christianity gives us. I am so exhausted from this battle... please pray for our family tonight. It is really not foundation rattling... we have the Lord as our strength and our guide. We will definitely come out on the right side of this trial. But right now, I need peace. "Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on Thee." Thank you Jesus.