Goodbye

Hello all (although I'm not sure there's anyone left out there reading this blog).

In case you haven't noticed, I have not been here at NAM lately. I am struggling with this a little for nostalgic reasons, but really the course has been set and it is pretty clear. I need to take a sabbatical from the world of blogging. There are a variety of reasons. Some are pretty clear. The computer is clearly a self control issue for me personally. I seem unable to walk away from this blasted thing once I sit down here. The only real reason I want to keep the internet is for church reasons (planning Sunday school lessons, watching church services, learning new songs to play at church for worship service). And email for communicating with family and my kids' teachers. It is the other stuff that side tracks me.... blogging, face booking, email conversations with friends, surfing, my ridiculous obsession with BAD NEWS on CNN, on and on and on. I will never ever get my prayer life and my relationship with God where it needs to be if I don't lick the computer issue. I must discipline myself, and this is where it starts. Facebook is next. I have to!!! I'm a little sad about stopping my blog after 5 years, but my relationship with God FAR FAR outweighs the value of this blog (DUH!!!). So... until further notice, I will be leaving this site and drawing closer to my wonderful Savior Jesus. No comparison!! I'm excited! Please pray for me, okay?? Thanks for reading! You are faithful, and I pray you have been blessed!!

Hot Pursuit

God is in hot pursuit. He's been after me for a long time, but the pursuit has heated up in recent weeks. He is wanting me to spend more time with Him. I, however, have been dodging the bullet, and catering to this relentless flesh that seems to have FAR too much control over me. In my spirit, I DESPERATELY want to spend intimate time with Jesus in prayer. I WANT IT! And I spend lots of time listening to and singing and playing worship music, listening to apostolic preaching online ALL THE TIME, and listening to CDs of preaching from my own church. Plus I spend time studying for Sunday school lessons. But the call to prayer is loud and relentless, and I long to answer it. I just don't know how to crucify this flesh. Every time I try, I fail. Does anyone have any suggestions? JUST DO IT won't work, because I have tried that and failed. Please help!